The Aftermath

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Aftermath

Nothing. That is exactly what I feel. It wasn’t supposed to be like this, it was supposed to be different I’m not sure how but it sure as hell was not supposed to be this!

From last night you have all read what happen, so this is just update on what occurred after I posted. So after talking to me Blue eyes asked me about a tweet I had put up (I forgot he could read mine, for at the moment I was venting) called me and as usual his phone always dies, but before it died he told that he was “head over heels” for this girl and he wanted it to work out with her because he hasn’t felt this way in a long time. Blue eyes even went as far as to tell her that she is everything that he is looking for and no matter what he will wait for her, to get her life in order and be able to trust him. That’s sweet right? (Couture dies a little inside).  Then his phone died… Once we were able to text he really got into talking about he wants her so much, and that he knows how much Curl wants him. Did I mention he is aware I like him? Anyway moving on. Blue eyes then remember his pervious question. My tweet. At first I avoided it and tried to act like I wasn’t going to answer but then I just did  “I want you to be happy, I can tell you care about her and I want you guys to work out. And the tweet… it was about you. But that doesn’t matter really, I just want you to know that you can always talk to me no matter what” That is the exact text I sent him, Blue eyes was a little surprised after all I’m here telling how great it is that he is so happy while at the same time I like him… RANDOM. To be honest I could never push my feelings on someone who cares about someone else and I told him that, I also told him to ignore what I said and that at the end of the day I will always be there no mater what I feel. His happiness means more to me then my own feelings, I’m not sure if that is being selfless or just plain stupid. You guys can be the judge of that.

By the end of the night I told him that he needed to sleep. But that didn’t last long. About an hour after I went to sleep he texted me, but I didn’t hear my phone so he called me (He called me at 2:17am) and was freaking out a little. But after talking to me he was able to clam down so he could sleep, he said something to me “You have become my new girl best friend. You are now number 1” then blue eyes said “thank you so much, I love you already with all my beating heart. Thank you.” Then I said to him “Your welcome. I love you too, you are one of my closest friends.” Lets just say the conversation went back and fourth about how much we both care about each other. When he finally went to sleep I stayed awake thinking about the mess I just got myself into, now I’m his new GIRL best friend. Which means I will hear about everything that happens between Blue eyes and Curl. I need to turn off how I feel. Every time I start to care about someone they find someone else and because I don’t want to loose them as a friend I push it aside and just deal with it. Wow… this happens to me way too much. Hmm… When it all goes down you all will be the first to know.

Until further Notice

Couture